I'm always really nervous before an interview or an event. Today I was particularly nervous since my last public speaking event was August 30th, and it's been a couple of months since I've engaged the public. Plus, a new book with a highly complex topic. I have also been awake since three in the morning on barely a couple hours sleep, and by the time this interview rolled around at 8:30 am, I didn't know whether I was coming or going. When nervous, I can't sleep. Too much nervous energy. The interviewer / host was great, and asked fun/ great questions about philosophy and the book. I just wish my mental acuity was sharper today. I would start answering a question and forget the question in the middle of giving my answer (what was answering?). Or I would use the word "reality" instead simulation or arbitrarily while trying to keep my train of thought. At one point I was asked about my background as he was curious about my writing, philosophical, and artistic background and what inspired it. I started telling him about my educational background in Liberal Arts and how it is a multidisciplinary degree which gave me the foundation for being involved in multiple areas and disciplines and how my primary focus was literature and philosophy. I am also an artist (paintings, etc.). It's an education of many disciplines and that's the sphere that I evolved in academically but then, I lost my train of thought mid-answer. It wasn't until I listened to the interview again that I thought, ah okay, that's what I was answering. I think the way to reconcile getting rusty after months off from public events or interviews I should do more of them during the winter and spring. My active window is in the summer.
https://www.wortfm.org/the-absence-of-reality/